I don’t think I am a perfect person by any means, nor do I think I am a perfect friend, but I do consider myself to be a good person in general and to do right by others. I don’t take to talking behind someone’s back because I don’t like it done to me. I don’t step on people to get ahead and I certainly do no stab people in the back or jump to the assumption I know what a Friend might mean by something I might read that they post or via hearsay. I would stop, pick up the phone and call that ‘Friend’ and ask then what exactly is going on and to explain to me so that I understand what is going on and explain my position.
Instead of this I get online tonight and notice I have an email from a ‘Friend’ that is do everything short of cussing me out using insults such as ‘people like you’ and ‘nasty ad you posted’ and on an on…I am not going to mention any names at all [not that any of you guys would know who I am talking about] but I am just really hurt right now. I know I shouldn’t be and I know I should perhaps just shrug it off because this is not the first time this particular ‘Friend’ has willed out half cocked and w/ no ground to stand on, but even knowing all of that it still bothers me. It appears I do actually care what some folks think about me after all . No just anyone or some random stranger but those I consider my FRIENDS, I do indeed care how they view me and value our friendship.
I am really new to making friends again. For so long I have not gave a damn about what anyone thought but I have come to the notion that I don’t want to be like that. I want my life full of good people and friendships. Now I do not need everyone to like me or want to be my friend but the few friends that I do have I would like to preserve those relationships.
I dunno this is more of a rant post than anything because right now I am saddened by how my evening has just turned out. What the hell is wrong with me? Am I that much of an unlikeable person? Do I come across that harsh and nasty of a human being?
- Over & Out -
- Nena X -
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